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Name: Mary
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Birthday: 9/24/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: i like getting dressed up with my girls and going out and having a good time. i pretty much suck at school right now. i love my family more than anything because they are hysterically funny. i like to play field hockey and i watch a lot of basketball
Expertise: i'm not sure that i have any. i am a lifeguard though so if you're ever drowning i'll be there...oh yea yea, i crack people up thats what i do!
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
1/24/2005
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| i think i only write on this because it's easier than writing in a real journal. lately i've been having all sorts of thoughts about things i'd like to write about, maybe it's just my innner writer coming out i don't know. i've been reading a lot lately like five books done since i've been home so i think that it gets me thinking. just maybe i'll have a good idea someday, maybe it will get me on the pittnews staff next year who knows? well this summer is shaping up to be pretty decent so far, maybe my low expectations are paying off. work is not bad, i'm really liking it. we had a party last night and at first i was a little skeptical about it because basically it's just a whole new set of people that i've never drank with before but it wasn't too bad. we have the keys to the pool so we can go swim after 11 when the rangers go off duty, omg it was so much fun. i swear i'm taking all of my friends out there and if i had a significant other that would be the first place i'd take him to. it's so pretty you can see all the stars and it's so quiet. i've had the past two days off so thats been pretty sweet. on saturday night i met *sigh* a new guy. i don't know he's fritz's friend who she hooked up with last summer, he's a little younger but it doesn't seem to bother me at least not in the first meeting. i thought he was pretty hot and we really had a good time together and everything so we'll see if anything becomes of this. i think i've been watching too much sex and the city lately because i'm starting to have all these feelings that i'm going to end up alone, but come on they're in their 30s so i guess i have a good bit of time until i really start worrying! it's just weird, i've posed this question again and again but why are some people never alone??? i've spent my entire 19 years on this earth alone and why is it that some people make a big deal about being single for a few months. is it that they are really needy and they need someone to be there? i know that i'm independent and such, but it's getting a little old. this is when i need megan to ponder these questions we always had such enlightening and nostalgic talks. i miss everyone from school so much, it's hard to be away from them for so long. i'm basically by myself here at home with claire and anne jetting of to wyoming. i have fritz and emily to hang with and we've been having some good times. really even though fritz and i are really different we get along surprisingly well. its been really fun hanging out with her lately. i think it's because we see a lot of the things the same way. we have a lot of the same views of sex and how we view people. it makes for some good conversations. well i need to get to bed it's gettting kinda late. | | |
| blahh thats all i have to say for "lambersburg." i've been home for roughly four days and i'm just about ready to go crazy. the weekend wasn't so bad b/c my family was around, but today was so boring. just me and max all day. it's such a change from living in a building full of college freshmen. i miss it all so much already, i knew it would be hard. seriously sometimes i even forget where i am, like i talked to jesse online last night but then remembered oh yea it doesn't really matter considering the fact that he lives almost three hours away from me. it's just a whole new set of priorities, now i have to worry about sharing the car with martin, taking the dog out, and mowing the lawn. what ever happened to studying and making sure i don't drink to much at a party. i miss all the stories and talks that we all had, i told everyone not to be surprised if i call them in the middle of the night being like "omg guess what..." thats totally going to happen one of these days. my only fear right now is that next year won't be the same. i don't want to think about it already b/c we just ended this year and i have four more months here to get through, but we are all going to be in different places. especially since claire and i really don't have a lot of the same friends anymore, it's not that i don't like katie and teresa and paolo. maybe it's just that they are older i mean i spend most of my time with people who are 19 not people who are graduating. so i feel kinda like they'll just be hanging out at our apartment next year and my friends won't come because i'm so far away. and then i'll just end up by myself. who knows what next year will bring, i've been becoming less of a worrier lately so i'm not going to start worrying about this already. who knows what summer will bring, maybe there will be some hot guy i work with at caledonia and that will make me forget all about how much being at home fails, but then again i don't want to have to hold onto that come fall. i'm thirsty for a summer fling. blah i'll get back to doing nothing | | |
| sunday before finals week....i should be panicing right? not in the least, i don't for some reason i don't get stressed about school anymore. it's really odd, i feel like i was under more pressure in high school than i am now. it's not that i'm a slacker, i do my work. i get it done and move on. my finals shouldn't be too bad just spanish and algebra. i want to rock the spanish one, just b/c i do and the algebra one i want to do well on too. everyone else is like freaking out and it's not that i don't understand why it's just that i don't feel the need to. i feel like i know what i need to do and i'll be fine. i was just thinking about this this morning, i worried more about schoolwork in high school b/c there was constant assessment. i mean everynite my parents would ask me how my grades were and such, plus i worried about doing as well as everyone else; now i don't feel that pressure. sure i want to get good grades, but that doesn't mean i have to shut myself in the library for days on end. well we'll see maybe i should be paniced but just like my old RA said, if you've been caught up all semester there is no reason to panic; it's the people that haven't done anything. i don't know that it's that my friends haven't done anything, i think they just panic because they feel like they should. oh well tired of typing i'll go back to the good 'ol espanol! | | |
| i guess i do this because i like to type and it fills up time when i don't feel like studying. well this past week i've deduced that i inadvertantly hurt peoples feelings because i don't take anything serious and therefore don't see why other people do, i think this could have been a problem for most of my life but i am just finally realizing it now. also i have to much fun apparently, at least thats what cosmo said and thats what liz says. i just don't think that people get me, i don't know i'm such a livewire i think it's hard for people to deal with. i mean believe me i do get sad, it just doesn't happen very often but i've been known to have the random emotional breakdown every now and then. but my whole life has been a constant string of people being like you have too much energy, why are you always happy, can't you just sit still. truth is i can't sit still, i can't shut up; i'm happiest when i'm talking to people and making them happy. some people have trouble with that because i think they want to be happy, but they are jealous because i am. maybe that sounds egotistical but thats how it is. anyhoo only a few more days left, all i have is two more spanish classes and another algebra class and then it's finals week. surprisingly my grades are looking pretty good, i better knock on wood after that one. looking forward to going out tomorrow night, last thirsty thursday of the year!! but kinda sad, hopefully we'll all go out with a bang! i don' t really want to go home, honestly all i'm looking forward to is good food and being able to drive. i feel bad for saying this and maybe it will change but i feel so much closer to the people i've met at school. i don't know why i just never seemed to find that niche in high school, i think it was because i was too worried about being friends with everyone and everyone liking me, which i failed horribly at the latter. i'm not good at keeping in touch i barely talk to emily, fritz, or jen. i don't even talk to katie that much, basically the only people i talk to are my parents and my brother, but that who i miss the most. i guess things just aren't the same between me and katie, it's so weird but hopefully it will get better. it's not that i am angry about dan and katie being together, it's more that i can't take her when she's with any guy. it's like she has to rub it in everyones face that she has someone. thats just the way i feel and maybe thats easy for me to say because i've never "had" anyone, but thats how i feel. i was looking at the scores on the PO online the other day and i was getting real nostalgic. honestly the only thing i miss from high school is sports, i'd kill to be back on the field hockey team. there was just something about it that made me tick. i think it might be hard to go home and hear about color day and see my brother go to the prom and stuff but i know i'm at a much better place right now. omg this has been a long one and i've just rambled on forever. | | |
| sunday night and what am i not doing...studying. this weather is bad for a GPA. i have a spanish test on tuesday and i've got plans to drink tomorrow night, sounds like a winning combination huh? less than three weeks to go and i don't want to leave. the only thing i am looking forward to by being at home is the food...i just had an explicit day dream about steak with mushrooms, sweet potatoes, and green beans. good god i don't know what i am going to do with myself at home, hopefully the Y will keep me busy for a while but may sure as hell is going to be a lonely month. and after claire and anne leave it's going to be awful. i'm looking forward to numerous road trips to visit my floor fifteen honeys!! oh yea yea i just dyed my hair red yesterday, only temporary it should be gone in a month. we'll see what the madre says about. i think it looks pretty sweet though. well looking forward to one last good week before hell begins next week and then finals week. outtie peace out! | | |
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